kahhan is
entering a new world soon

Some say it's always good to have dreams.

Some say that whilst young, one should always reach for one's goals.

If I was a more confident person last time, I wouldn't fall prey to my own mind.

If you didn't react that way when I showed you that I failed my Physics test about 3 years ago, I wouldn't be this weak.

If you had given me more assurance and ease, I would not have pressurised myself so much and fell apart, never to recover to my same old self again

If I was like my eldest brother who is always confident and successful, I could shine and realise my potential.

If I was like him, I could have followed in his footsteps.

I would not have shown you my weakness.

I would not have let you remembered how hard I struggled with myself and my feeble mind twice.

I would not have dug a hole and jumped into it, and let you bury me alive.

I would not have extinguished my hopes.

You re-emphasised my lingering fear.

You made me realise how small I am.

You magnified all the flaws, and diminished all my strengths.

You did not acknowledge my talents; you criticised my wild ambitions.

I said I wanted to go overseas; you said I should stay here.

I said I wanted to get a scholarship; you said you can pay for my tuition fees.

I said I wanted to have a new experience; you said I can do it in the future while staying here.


You said, "This is our plan".


I said, in my heart, "What about mine?"

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